when a person admits that he may be attracted to people of both genders, pansexuality misses the importance of gender at all. The attraction can be to transgenders
and other types of gender, it does not matter.
I liked my girlfriend. It was interesting and incomprehensible, and I was scared to discuss with her what was happening. Not every day you are said: "I want to touch your breast so much like a motherfucker." In the end I decided to discuss everything with her. She said: "I do not want to be scared of you, so we will talk." And we were talking: about what exactly I felt, how, when. In the end she admitted that I had sympathy for her and that she couldn't reciprocate it, but she didn't want to lose a friend either. We were in good, trusting relationship. I could tell her: "Now I would kiss you!", and we laughed at it together.
Later I tried picking up one pretty girl from the bar. During a year I couldn't pick her up! I was very stubborn, but the attempt was not successful. However, at that time I myself did not completely understand what was happening to me. I didn't accept myself - I was afraid that acceptance would destroy my social status and my relations with others.
In the first year of art college I had a girlfriend. She was not really a girl, she was a transgender. In communication I call her "he", because that is how she identifies herself.
The fellow students and teachers brought her to a breakdown. Everyone believed that she was sick in the head, a manipulator, inadequate, that she needed to be treated. We started going to psychiatrists, and I am happy that we met very adequate specialists. We passed a lot of tests that confirmed that my girlfriend is transgender, that this a guy in the female body. She was given a permission to make a gender reassignment surgery in Moscow. Only after that the fellow students began to accept and understand her and me. To be true, not all.