I have not decided on anything, this is not a choice. The choice is to be transphobic. I want to be clear - trans people are confident about their identity just as non-trans people. There is no difference. And therefore there is no justification for condemning one to the other.
Fortunately, I did not deal with any physical attacks - but personally I know a lot of people who were often attacked, and they did not report this because of fear of ridicule and condemnation. This is a huge problem in our society. I think that all, or almost all trans people from Macedonia whom I know were physically attacked because they are trans.
On the other hand, I faced verbal attacks almost every day. These sort of things happened with people whom I used to be friends with, with bystanders, basically everywhere. I remember that once, I was in a situation where several people were violently shaking the chair I was sitting in, at a state-owned internet café. They were screaming into my ears. I was afraid to react, and nobody else did anything. There were a couple of guys there and I was sure they would wait for me outside. Fortunately, it did not happen.
Previously, I was also under pressure from my family
(X did not go into the details of the conflicts, he says only that there were many "arguments and problems" between him and his relatives, Ed.), But at the end, my family accepted me for who I am. They understood that only in this way I can be happy and lead a functional life.